For the past several months, I've been running two blogs simultaneously -- one about our slow moving house renovation (Thirtyeight20), and the other about random stuff and baby antics (Cabin Fervor). I was quite pleased with this arrangement for awhile. Compartmentalization is good sometimes, especially when you have a blog about your house, and you and your house aren't getting along all that well, and you just want to think and write about anything else. Cabin Fervor has been a quiet but welcome distraction for me.
Besides, come on, what a cute blog name!
Months later, I'm still not getting along with my house. I woke up yesterday in a righteously grumpy mood, realizing that this week marks the fourth anniversary of our ownership of this house. We've come a mighty long way, but there's still so much left to do. I don't feel like writing down all the words that are coming to mind about it because many of them are depressing, but suffice it to say, if I could go back four years and sit down at that mortgage broker's table, I would probably not sign those papers that were spread out all over it. I mean, you know you've made a terrible mistake when the pizza delivery boy calls you and says, "I'm not sure I'm at the right place... Well, there's like a whole bunch of weeds and a big dumpster out front..." and you have to admit he is, in fact, sitting in the driveway of the house where you have lived for almost four years. Granted, I am grateful for the roof over my head and the two people I get to share it with, but we've been through a lot because of this house, and we've missed out on a lot too. I usually try not to think about it in those terms, but sometimes, like when you feel bad that your curious explorer baby can't run freely in every room in her own home, it's hard to ignore that little pang of regret.
But, despite the desire to compartmentalize, it's time for the double-blogging to end. It was more a symbolic separation than anything--considering mostly the same people read both blogs--and I've come to terms with my reasons why I needed that separation. Now I need simplicity. One blog, one place to make my moans heard, one place to berate myself for being indecisive, one place to share our progress and my excitement over little victories in parenthood. One place to manage my own expectations instead of what everyone else thinks.
Welcome to www.cabin-fervor.com.
That, in case you hadn't noticed, is where you are right now. From here on out, this is the place to be, complete with its own fancy url to make it official. All my Cabin Fervor posts have now come to live here (sorry if I blew up your feed when I imported them all), so all my content should be happily married here in this space. After a few design tweaks like a new header and some more url rerouting, things will be pretty much the same as before, but with more random non-house-related stuff thrown in to keep things interesting.
So, just so we're clear, Thirtyeight20 = Cabin Fervor = Thirtyeight20 = awesome. It will be so until I decide it won't anymore, and then we'll collect our things and carry on someplace else.
Maybe at a new house after I burn this one to the ground.